While the destination may not be one you intend, you can rest assured that you are moving by the power of your own will. You are deciding your own fate and making decisions that may be self destructive. Your goal is to find out if the desires you manifest are healthy in the long run.
Someone else has your best interests in heart and they are guiding you to a beneficial result. Try to identify this person and heed their advice.
About the Art:
I had found this beautiful image of a topless woman leaving over the edge of a pool. I also liked the imagery of Catelyn Stark cutting open a woman's throat in Game of Thrones. I put those together to depict a woman slitting her own throat.